Friday, October 2, 2015

Does Truth Drive You Crazy?

A Kundalini Love Story
What are thoughts? Particularly the intuitive eye-openers that change one’s life? The place of Intelligence is in the heart, not the brain. Truth is first experienced in the chest region, not the head. This can be scary, because when Kundalini is first awakened, Her most immediate and explosive impact is felt in the brain and in the general area of the head — crushing pressure from the back of the head, needle-like darts of energy from under the face. The region around the chest and heart seems to get by-passed. This accords with the Tantra, which say that the heart center is difficult to open, and is first experienced as a “darkness blotted out by smoke.” Yet the heart is where truth is manifested, and where Intelligence awakens.

When the heart center opens a curious reversal takes place. The brain becomes still. The brain remains immensely alive biologically, but it floats, in a state of suspension that must have something to do with the effect of Kundalini on the cerebro-spinal fluid. Instead of creating thought — the limited, repetitive treadmill of what we think 24/7 — the brain is able to wait. In this state of suspension, packets of energy rise from the chest region. They can literally be seen coming, like tiny explosions from the surface of the sun, moving upwards from the heart.

Heart Chakra Goddess
Heart Chakra Goddess
The brain knows what these quanta of intelligence mean before it registers them as thought. There is great power in this state of neural suspension. Angry or fearful energy can be simply seen coming, left unregistered, and turned into free energy. Influxes of truth from the heart center can be allowed to flower into words and ideas. These words and ideas, however — and this is the problem — may well strike one, later on, as crazy. We may feel that they open us up to a reality we’re not used to and don’t want any part of. Truth that rises from the heart center and flowers into neural structures — these new words and ideas — can go against everything we’ve been taught, and everything that we think about ourselves. For instance:

1. Other people don’t exist. Other people are the mere product of my senses. This seems a horrible thing to assert, and not good for one’s career, social well-being, or love-life. In fact, it’s unforgivable, unless I accept the less easy truth that I don’t exist. I am a mere product of my senses.

2. My male body is female. It craves women because women are closer to its real center than it is. This one perplexes me so much that I’ve never been able to figure out how it works the other way round.

3. The universe pours out of my face:
  • I know that if I dare
  • Look at it, I’ll see her eyes.
4. I’ve just died, and come back to life, but I can’t remember it.

The Tantric texts speak of two subtle channels that lie inside the susumna nadi, the central spinal channel, one inside the other. They must have something to do with the passage of Kundalini through the cerebro-spinal fluid. The first is called the brahma nadi, and the second, even subtler channel is called the citrini nadi. They are the conduits of upwards-rising, pure consciousness, the pathways of intelligent energy as it pulses upwards from the heart.

When heart energy flowers in the brain, the things we think seem crazy. This is why Kundalini teachings are traditionally accompanied by danger warnings. The risk of insanity is real, particularly as pertains to fantasies of self-aggrandizement. Stillness is essential. The state of neural suspension, of letting intelligence rise from the heart, must be carried over into everyday life so that we remain balanced, even when we are facing difficulties.

In Sanskrit, the forehead chakra is called Ajna. Ajna means “command,” not in the sense of rigid control, but in the sense of maintaining our balance as crazy truths keeps striking us.

Saturday, September 26, 2015

Is Kundalini Worth It?

This blog and hundreds like it, many books, websites, symposiums, and gatherings focus on the topic of Kundalini. To what avail? What sort of impact is the discussion and buzz around this topic having on society at large, if any?

What does "worth it" mean in relation to a topic like Kundalini? What kind of value can be placed on it? A monetary value? Another kind of value? Religious? Spiritual? Educational? Ontological? Philosophical? Biological? Esoteric? Evolutionary? Sociological? Medical?

What if there was no such thing as Kundalini? What if there was no such thing as Major League Baseball or the National Football League? No such thing as banks? Life insurance? Museums? Libraries? Could we do without them?

Hnad to mouth
Food is an Essential
Could we do without gardens? I don't think so. Food to perpetuate life is an essential, not only for the present population, but for the future of humanity.

And what about the others? Are any of them necessities?

Tomorrow is Sunday. Suppose there were no NFL games? Could we survive? No NFL, no banks, no insurance, no TV, no museums or libraries — we'd still be here on Monday.

No Kundalini, however, and come Monday, life on earth would start grinding to a halt? Why you ask would something that I've never heard of have such a profound impact? An impact similar to the disappearance of food, say.

Quite simply, although Kundalini works behind the scene, so to speak, and is not widely known by most of the world's population, it is not only the driving force behind evolution, it is responsible for each and every person's — whether alive today or in the future — unique bodily substantiation. What does the term bodily substantiation mean exactly? In this context, it means the formation of your body from the moment of insemination to the moment of your birth.

This is not a belief system; it's biological fact: do away with Kundalini and you do away with humanity. In one fell swoop we're back to the dawn of evolution. How can this be true? Well, as our bodies take shape in the womb from one day to the next, something has to be responsible for our bodily substantiation. And while scientists don't know what it is, people who have succeeded in raising Kundalini do. They understand that evolution, as well as the formation of living organisms, is powered by Kundalini energy. Kundalini exists for a purpose.

If it didn't serve a purpose, evolution would have eliminated it. That's how evolution works; it gets rid of unnecessary traits or functions.
"The Indian mystic Osho said, when the quantum physicists, with their new methods, went from the world of matter to the subatomic world, they went - without knowing it — from the physical to the etheric plane. According to Osho, if you go deep in the physical body to the microcosmic level, there is a more subtle electrical body called the etheric body. The etheric body is sort of a blueprint of the physical body. In the etheric body, also called the emotional body, feelings, sensations and thoughts exist as waves while they exist as particles in the physical body. At a certain level of attention, the waves and wave packets at the etheric level collapse into particles at the physical level. This is, of course, a quantum mechanical process."
~ Quantum Mechanics and the Etheric Body
Like food, Kundalini in one of the essentials.
The Seven Chakras
The Seven Fundamental Chakras

So, yes, Kundalini has an underlying, essential evolutionary purpose. But, that said, do people have to know about it? Can't we prosper and lead a merry ol' life, just by having it just run in the background like an app on your smart phone that counts the number of steps you take everyday?

That may have been true in the past. Kundalini could just toil away in the background, but today our survival is in doubt. Faced with so many threats (environmental, mass migrations, war, terrorism, hunger, disease, economic collapse, corporate greed) our continued existence is imperiled. We must take an active role in evolution. And that, perhaps, is why so many books and blogs on spiritual topics are being written today...because biological processes like Kundalini, that were formerly unknown or ignored, are now essential to our survival, and the evolutionary impulse is serving them up to us on a conscious, elemental level.
"Unfortunately, most human beings are not plugged in. They are trying to generate their own power. So they eat five times a day, but still they are tired most of the time. It is a struggle to keep life going. Energy is not just in terms of physical energy or activity, energy is in terms of life. Existence is energy, isn’t it? The basis of existence is energy. If you know that basis, it is like knowing the foundations of life. If you understand the ways of the energy, you know the whole mechanics of creation. So if you are plugged in, you know what the power is, what it can do and what you can make out of it. You are plugged into an endless source of power – that is what is Kundalini."
So, while Kundalini has worked behind the scenes during most of human history, because of its importance in the energetics revolution (yoga, meditation, mindfulness, etc.) now taking place on earth, it is now coming to the fore. Its intrinsic value has not changed, but what we know about it and the way we approach it has.

Wednesday, September 23, 2015

Mobilizing the Energies of the Subtle Body

I’ve enjoyed reading books by Lama Yeshe on the subject of tantra. He speaks simply, with great wisdom, but with reasonable caution as to the use of tantra to mobilize the energies of the subtle body for healing and regenerative purposes. As he would describe it:

“Any path utilizing the powerful and potentially destructive energies of desire can be dangerous. If followed improperly or with a selfish motivation, tantra can lead the misguided practitioner into realms of greater mental and physical suffering.”
The mental and physical suffering that Lama Yeshe is speaking about here, I assume, are the everyday sufferings we all experience as we get caught up in our own obsessions and illusions.

The purpose, as I understand it, for mobilizing the energies of the subtle body is to erode and dismantle the influences of the ego, to bring us to that state of equanimity where we become less driven by our obsessions and illusions. Can we, through tantra, become more indifferent to the influences of pleasure or pain, loss or gain, praise or blame, fame or shame? Can we become less obsessive in following what we perceive to be attractions or in avoiding at all costs what we perceive to be our aversions? This only happens as we diminish the influences of “ego."

When mobilizing the energies of the subtle body, always in the back of my mind are the questions: “What is my underlining intention for doing so? Is it for the purpose of spiritual growth and of becoming less attached, or is it for the purpose of seeking enhanced pleasure, greater and greater bliss for bliss’s sake? The three tests of the Sutras, for me, provide the means to discern my intentions:
  • Am I better able to renounce the things of the world as the source of my overall happiness and well-being? Do I see these things for what they are?
  • Is my attitude of service and concern for others increasing in its multiplicity of forms?
  • Can I better experience the impermanence of exterior things in order to more fully embrace the “absolute” that lies beyond “self,” but nevertheless remains mysteriously united with “self.”

This “absolute” is a state of being we all have and possess. We are created in the nature of the absolute. The trouble is that it is covered over, obscured by the clouds of illusion of the ego. Just as the clear light of the sky cannot be seen when obscured by clouds, the blissful presence of the “absolute” cannot be experienced when obscured by the deep, penetrating conditioning of the ego.

When I keep my intentions in their proper order, the mobilization of the energies of the subtle body can and do lead to spiritual regeneration and growth. These blissful energies can disable and transcend the ego and its attachments to enable us to experience the fourth dhyana where all sensation ceases and only mindful equanimity remains. This is the realm where both suffering and pleasure are extinguished, where sorrows or worries no longer exist. This is the stage of the beginning of pure mindfulness.

As I mentioned in a previous post, these energies can be mobilized through five types of activities: vibrations generated through:
  • Breath,
  • Physical movement,
  • Visualization,
  • Sound,
  • Touching or stimulation.
In my years of practice in Christian Meditation (pre-kundalini), my focus was primarily on repeating and listening to the sound of a mantra. My focus was on the silence, stillness, and simplicity of meditation. Any attention given to activities other than repeating the mantra were discouraged and minimal. For example, we were told to sit in a comfortable position, back straight, feet flat on the floor, breath normally. In other words, let your attention to everything else go. Just repeat and listen to the mantra. I attribute my kundalini rising to this simple practice over many years.

However, my post-kundalini activities include components of all five of those vibrational activities described above. So I’m not sure what effect these additional activities would have on those who may have not experienced kundalini rising. But they have certainly enhanced my post-kundalini years, and have led to many changes.

For the methods that I use to mobilize the energies of the subtle body, please refer to my post entitled The Four Dhyanas.

I have found that one of the most significant of these activities is sitting in a siddhasana posture. Siddhasana is often described as the perfect posture. It involves crossing the legs, sitting with the perineum firmly on the heel of one foot. This seat provides stimulation of kundalini energy upward through the nervous system, ultimately, creating a constant flow of ecstatic conductivity throughout the meditation practice.

The story of the wood worm illustrates how this takes place. The worm comes into birth through the wood of the tree in which it resides. Yet it is this same wood that it consumes in order to re-generate itself. It destroys that which gave it life in order to generate new life. The subtle body’s blissful vibrational energies, mobilized under the right intentions, although impermanent in themselves, provide the means by which we can de-rail and dissolve the very thing that they are prone to create in order to generate a new level of consciousness where all sensation ceases and only equanimity remains.

Friday, September 11, 2015

Sexual Magic

Love is often spoken of in terms of magic. Is there such a thing as real sexual magic, an act that Kundalini carries out in and through the physical body? In Natalie, A Kundalini Love Story I describe a moment of authentic magic performed, not with rituals, spells, and pentagrams etc., but by a man and woman lying in each others' arms, sleeping but connected by a deeper consciousness. Physically, Jim and Natalie are about to lose one another, perhaps be killed, but Kundalini joins their subtle bodies at the base of the spine and for an instant they are outside time and space. These things happen. At the moment when they let go of their physical obsession with one another, Jim and Natalie connect with a power that can save them because it works with the force of innocence.

Author Paul Lyons
Far from being a matter of control and willpower, true magic is innocent. This is why children are more open to it and can sometimes do magic without realizing it.

When I was about five, I went through a period when I used to hold my breath to make myself dizzy. Being dizzy made me feel strong and happy. It was only later that the reason I did it became clear to me. When I was three, my mother nearly died of tuberculosis. She disappeared into a TB ward, and I wasn't allowed in to see her, because the disease was contagious. I used to wave to her through a window from the hospital garden, but I wasn't allowed in the same room as her, or to breathe the air she breathed. My mother survived, but TB destroyed one of her lungs and left her with only three quarters use of the other lung.

For the rest of her life, every breath she breathed was a battle, and she suffered shocking breathlessness attacks. I see now that when I held my breath to make myself dizzy, I was feeling my way, on the subtle plane, towards the mother whom I wasn't allowed to touch physically. I felt happy and strong because the connection was real. It was a form of magic and it worked. I had stumbled upon a primitive form of pranayama. Through outwardly difficult circumstances, I'd found something that would be precious in my later life.

The life force comes to people in roundabout ways, over the course of a lifetime, as in JJ Semple's Deciphering The Golden Flower One Secret At A Time, where a childhood injury, irrationally (magically) kept undisclosed ended in a Kundalini awakening.

Shiva and Shakti
Connected in Space/Time

Their subtle bodies connected at the base of the spine, asleep, but deeply awake, in each others' arms, the heat of their erotic obsession gone, Jim and Natalie enter a space, a moment of space/time located in the future, a hotel room high above London, where the threat to their lives awaits them. Place is important in magic, as is the moment in time from which all space emerges. Place, space/time, is manifested in the Throat Chakra. As Vivek Govekar stated in an earlier post, the Throat Chakra is the bridge from the earthly realm (the body) to the transcendental plane in the higher chakras in the head; it's a passageway across to the realms without form both the Buddha and particle physics speak of. It's a midway state where authentic and simple magic can take place. Because magic, even erotic magic, isn't about control and will-power; it's a sudden, innocent uncovering of what is.

Sunday, September 6, 2015

The Esoteric Path — The One Less Traveled

One morning, I had the realization that what I have always considered to be a spiritual path as opposed to a religious path has really been an esoteric and not an exoteric path. Hot on the heels of that realization came the insight that what I considered "my" path with "my" spiritual experiences including kundalini was part of an already established, albeit less traveled, path of esotericism. This insight was both deflating and exciting. Deflating for my ego in that what I had considered "my" original unique spiritual path was already established and excitement that I finally had a map for my spiritual direction.

Margaret Dempsey
In my book Female Kundalini, I discriminate between spiritual and religious. All I needed to have said was "I have followed an esoteric (spiritual) as opposed to an 'exoteric' (religious) path since childhood" and perhaps more people might have understood what I meant. But this is the esoteric path.

It's like putting together a jigsaw. The first piece represents an attraction to "something." A Presence and response to it. All the other pieces are about being honest and authentic and developing self-understanding and self-observation as pieces of the esoteric jigsaw.

On the esoteric path there is an intuitive realization of the final picture, i.e. a life of sat, chit, ananda (consciousness, love  bliss) and an excitement and aliveness and willingness to play the game to get there. It helps to have an experience in childhood which acts as a constant reminder of "something." In my case, it was having a prayer answered when I was nine. It was this experience which started me on the esoteric path. I wanted to know THAT — that had answered my prayer. I was in no doubt that it had been answered and the way that it had been answered was no accident. I am hugely grateful for this event happening in childhood because it has always been the spur for me to carry on during those periods when self-doubt, confusion, trials and tests were at their toughest. The esoteric path is full of trials and tests and they are all aimed at increasing self-awareness and self-observation.

For me the tests on this esoteric (spiritual) path have all been about a loss of face. What I mean is: I have always been a writer and at various points have made firm declarations like "experiencing the kundalini energy is the peak of the spiritual search" and then I have the realization that "hang on, I have had this experience and I'm not enlightened, all I am, in truth, is an ego who's had a powerful spiritual experience" and this realization brings with it a huge loss of face, particularly as I am the author of Female Kundalini. But authenticity is more important to me than saving face. So instead of ignoring the insight about kundalini not being sufficient for constant, abiding enlightenment I began to look at why such a powerful experience as the awakening of the kundalini energy is necessary, but not sufficient for enlightenment.

This inquiry brought me to my second major loss of face. In another moment of insight, I realized that it is always the ego that is having the experiences, spiritual, mystical or simply ordinary. As the ego is an illusion as all the great spiritual traditions constantly and consistently point out, then there can be no permanency with any such experiences. Hot on the heels of this insight was the realization that the ego is not a structure but it is an activity — the activity of separation, which loves to claim the accolade of kundalini/and or other experiences because it reinforces the sense of separation. I realized that, if I, as an ego, was going to achieve enlightenment I was not going to do it by paying attention to my ego. Doing this is like "being a thief and then becoming a detective to catch the thief." It can't be done and only leads to a dance that goes nowhere. The above picture is what it feels like when these realizations hit and their truth resonates with an inward groaning of "Oh no."

For me, the dilemma with insights and realizations is that, when they come, they are always uncomfortable and force an honest reevaluation that results in a shift from whatever path I might have been on e.g., Buddhism, Reiki, Kundalini. Some have accused me of being fickle, changing my spiritual views, and not sticking to one thing. On one level I understand these criticisms; the esoteric path is not linear. Sticking to one path does not necessarily foster growth. It demands courage to see beyond a current infatuation, a transformation usually caused by a shift in consciousness, itself due to a realization or insight you recognize as not being true to your previous attachment, all of which gives you the courage to move on. Insights and realizations are a sign of a shift in consciousness.

Another loss of face I went through was my firm belief that having a guru was the worst thing you could do; that it was giving away your power and was, therefore, a bad idea. Again, I am on record as saying this. But then it dawned that no matter what I did — whether it was developing kundalini, or deepening my transformational self-development training — it would always and only be me doing it as an ego and, as a result, would never be "IT."

It's hard to write about the effect this realization had on me; it really rocked my world and I was horrified at the implications it might have for my life. I had to face the reality that at any moment I was either paying attention to my ego or creating something else. There is no other option and this is tough for the ego mind which doesn't see it or accept it. It is seen and recognized at a much deeper level; I recognized the necessity of  turning my attention away from ego to something else. Now there was a choice... But would I make it? Would I give up the life that is available and the opportunities that are possible for an ego with an awakened kundalini? Would I face up to the next test for me on this esoteric path?

Shortly after the shock of this realization, the Grace of Guru Bhatki yoga or the path of devotion was conferred on me in the form of a friend bringing me the autobiography of the realizer that I am now devoted to. I guess you could say it was the classic example of the old saying, "When the student is ready, the Master will appear."

I understand intuitively that if I am to go all the way on this esoteric path to self-realization and permanent abiding enlightenment that I have to transcend my ego. Transcending the ego is not the same as dissolving or fragmenting the ego — that way lies insanity. Ego transcendence is when the ego is transcended through the path of devotion, providing access to enlightenment, and nothing else.

This was a hard realization and even though I didn't like it and fought against it for over a year, I couldn't deny the Truth of how the search for freedom from suffering, which we all as human egos undergo in one way or another, is what interferes with the realization of what we search for. Taking a vow of devotion to a Guru/realizer, and taking up ego transcending practices, is what the ego fights against and this is a major reason why it puts up so much resistance using everything and anything to do so. And I did exactly this before accepting the path of devotion.

The ego senses that once attention is turned to the path of devotion that it will be transcended through non-use and non-attention. Having been a devotee on this path for over a year, I can now confirm that I am happy, less reactive to the things in my life, more equaniminous. Living a life that flows and is balanced I am hugely grateful to have found this way of ego transcendence through the path of devotion.

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

The Healing Properties of Kundalini

lower back getting stiffAfter spending some time on a Saturday afternoon moving some heavy cement slabs in the basement of my cottage, I noticed my lower back getting quite stiff and painful, particularly when moving in a certain direction. This was just another reminder that my aging physical body is becoming increasingly sensitive to the stresses and strains of life. I just cannot do the things I use to do, even though I still like to think I can.
daily meditation exercisesIn the early morning as I began my daily meditation exercises sitting on two round cushions designed for this purpose, I became quickly aware of the discomfort that I was experiencing in my back. I reminded myself that despite the discomfort in my physical form, there lies within its boundaries a more subtle body whose connotation is indestructibility.

 This subtle body, often referred to as the “Vajra Body,” is made up of thousands of channels through which flow numerous life-force energies. Unlike the physical body with its ordinary nervous system, muscles, organs and other components, all subject to sickness, decay and eventual death, the subtle body is free from these inevitable sufferings. In fact, once we have made contact with this clear, conscious body of light through meditation, our physical bodies are no longer a problem, or at least, not as great a problem.

a more subtle body

The various components of the subtle Vajra Body — its channels, chakras, energy winds, etc. — are all worthy topics, but today I want to single out the channel referred to as sushumna that runs in a straight line from the top of the heads down to an area in front of the base of the spine.
energy winds

Many experiencing “Kundalini Rising” are familiar with the sushumna and the focal points located at various intervals along the channel known as chakras or energy wheels. It is at these distinct focal points that the subtle body overlays the physical body through its lymph and glandular system, revealing their purposeful connection:
  1. To share how the life-force energies of the vajra subtle body can interact with the physical body to provide relief from physical pain as the two are brought into contact with one another.
  2. To introduce methods of mobilizing the life-force energies of the subtle body in a future post.
I am not speaking solely about the process of transcending physical pain by directing our full attention away from our physical bodies. I am speaking of the ability of the life-force energies of the subtle body to assist in the relief of physical pain through our meditation experience.

Each morning, part of my meditation time is spent in an activity which could be described as "tantra." Tantra has to do with the mobilization of the life-force energies of the subtle body with the intention of growing in spiritual awareness. These energies can be mobilized through five types of activities — vibrations generated through:
  • Breath
  • Physical movement
  • Visualization
  • Sound
  • Touching, stimulation, etc.
When we carry out those activities with the deliberate purpose of mobilizing our life-force energies (which can then be directed up the sushumna by intention), we discover nature’s most natural and effective method of healing and alleviating suffering in our physical form.

chakras or energy wheels

This mobilized energy erodes away the attention we place on our physical bodies by placing us in a state of inner stillness and calm. The blissful, ecstatic, vibrational qualities of this energy soothes and restores those areas of our physical form damaged by life's stresses.

Friday, August 21, 2015

How Do You know If Kundalini Is Active?

So how do you KNOW if your Kundalini is really awakened? For Gopi Krishna and myself, two persons who practiced Kundalini meditation, we were able to observe somatic and metabolic changes in the body as the sexual sublimation process engaged and as it ultimately reached a dramatic crescendo, ushering waves of pranic energy into the brain, igniting all chakras and opening up a vast metaphysical realm. In cases like ours, the proof is incremental and documentable: The trigger induces the effects and we followed the process as you might follow a laboratory experiment — one taking place in the laboratory of your own body.

For me, the effects have been benign. Whether this holds true in your case, I can't say. Withstanding the effects depends on your ability to accept Kundalini and adapt yourself to its dictates. I've talked with many people who have shared some, if not all, of the effects listed below, and, in doing so, have thrived:
  • Triggering autonomic self-healing mechanisms capable of correcting defects due to neural degeneration;
  • Rejuvenating the brain and the body as a result of intense neuroplastic activity;
  • Retarding the aging process;
  • Reversing self-destructive and addictive behavior;
  • Heightening and enhancing consciousness through the awakening of various metanormal effects and powers;
  • Cleansing the ego by removing the effects of conditioning and programming: self-actualization;
  • Clearly demonstrating that the spirit persists after death;
  • Helping to end dependency on ineffective health-care models; and
  • Facilitating the transition into the next state of being.
What about those whose Kundalini has been ignited accidentally…without any intention to do so?

In cases where the individual cannot identify a trigger, you almost have to work inductively, from the effects back to the cause, from the symptoms to the trigger. If you can identify a number of acknowledged Kundalini effects/symptoms, you might conclude that your Kundalini has somehow been aroused. This is tricky because there’s a tendency to equate certain mental aberrations with Kundalini symptoms, persuading yourself that Kundalini has actually awakened when it hasn't. You must always verify everything you see, hear, or feel.

But suppose an individual is unable to identify a trigger, but is able to describe a set of psychic, physical, mental, and metaphysical effects that suddenly manifest themselves — effects that are so antithetical to, and even incompatible with, that person’s previous behavior or state of being. For instance, feeling the need to be alone when he/she was formerly gregarious, feeling sexually disinterested as opposed to feeling oversexed, a newfound aversion to addictive substances and behavior, dramatic changes in diet and energy levels. Obviously, the person would begin to wonder about the cause of these changes. And if that person was familiar with Kundalini, it might seem like a logical choice for a cause. But is it a well founded choice?

So, unless there's some indication of the actual trigger, there's really no way of determining if Kundalini is active. You must delve deeper. Kundalini is not to be trifled with. Make sure you're up to dealing with radical changes in condition (psychic, mental, emotional, physical, and metaphysical) over your lifetime.

Kundalini is there for the rest of you life
Don't Rush To Activate Kundalini
Activating Kundalini has far reaching consequences. Unfortunately, strip mall Yoga salons don’t know much about the aftermath of a Kundalini awakening: It’s a lifetime responsibility and learning to live with it is often beyond the ken of those trying to sell you on activating it. Interested persons should think about why they want to attempt to awaken Kundalini and how they want to go about it. In other words, the choice of trigger?

Nevertheless, since effects vary from subject to subject, even though subsets of effects may be shared in many cases, it is useful to rate each trigger by the effects it induces. That way the individual can identify which triggers to avoid and which ones produce positive effects.

Now, the term "triggers" I keep referring to are really different kinds of detonators. The actual cause — the explosive charge — that "detonates" Kundalini activity is a quantity of stored-up, distilled sexual energy (explosive charge) preternaturally available at the moment the detonator (trigger) engages.

No matter the detonator (trigger) — be it drugs, for instance, or meditation, or even sexual rapture, each detonation causes a release of sexual energy. The initiate may not feel sexually aroused during its release because in releasing sublimated sexual energy, Kundalini works at a deep neurological level. One thing is certain, however, the sensations/effects/symptoms the individual feels when Kundalini activates are always due to the release and upward climb of sexual energy to the brain (only the dosages and frequencies vary).

For example, you may feel tired, enthralled, frightened, or depressed without any erotic undercurrents. Nevertheless, sexual energy is present. The reason you may not feel sexually aroused is because the energy Kundalini releases to the brain initiates a rewiring of neural and cerebral circuits, which once fired, can cause behavioral irregularities, up to and including bliss, psychosis, and depression, which in turn, mask the sexual sublimation activity taking place in the background.

There’s another element that must be accounted for, a deterministic element some call The Field. Not every person seeking to activate Kundalini is able to do so. At the same time, not every person in whom Kundalini becomes active wants it to happen. This is especially important at the present time when so many people are striving to activate it by so many different methods. Most of them have no idea what awaits them if they succeed. And if and when they do succeed, they are often ill-prepared to deal with the aftermath.

JJ Semple
So how is the determination made on who’s going to succeed? This is important because forcing a Kundalini activation is almost beside the point in evolutionary terms. Human evolution is nowhere near complete. Over time, the human race is going to reach higher states of consciousness. What’s more, our bodies will continue to evolve. Evolution will see to it; that’s how evolution works. So, basically, in your attempt to raise it, you are trying to jumpstart something that's going to happen anyway over time.

Anyway, back to The Field...

For the trigger and the explosive charge to collide, The Field must move them into alignment; that’s it’s deterministic nature. This Field could be called The Energy Continuum or Consciousness or even a Quantum event, one whose moment is come to pass: the collision in time and space of Detonator (trigger) and Explosive charge (sexual energy), brought together by The Field (quantum event), thereby escorting an individual destiny through an evolutionary leap. This "happening" is much rarer than you might be led to believe.

What’s important for the initiates The Field does select is to realize that what he/she is undergoing is benign, any aberrant mental and psychic states can be stabilized by accepting Kundalini, not fighting it. So be patient. Let the rewiring and the restorative work begin.

Tuesday, August 11, 2015

The Thing That Really Triggers Kundalini

If there’s ever to be a scientific study of Kundalini, so that Kundalini awakenings can become widespread and verifiable, then the single thing that triggers Kundalini needs to be isolated. Kundalini awakens in a multitude of situations, with a plethora of apparent triggers: drugs, meditation, emotional catastrophe, shaktipat, even the bizarre practice of erotic asphyxiation, but these are merely circumstances, that surround the moment of awakening, they are not the trigger itself. We must look deeper to find the first cause. I think an indication of what the trigger is can be found in two small statuettes, both bronzes, from the Kashmiri and Tibetan traditions. These bronze statues combine two figures, but were made for individual meditation. One is the Tibetan yab-yum image of Vajrasattva, the Diamond Thunderbolt Sceptre seated in upright sexual congress with Vajradhatvisvari, the Diamond Thunderbolt Wisdom. The other is the image of a rampant Kali, again in the upright position, straddling the erect penis of the dead Shiva.

Vajrasattva has huge eyes. They stare out across Vajradhatvisvari’s shoulder on the brink of terror. He’s staring into the void, one foot lifted in a stamping movement as her body climbs his in a zigzag motion like a bolt of lightning. In the other statue, Shiva’s eyes are closed, while Kali’s eyes stare straight ahead into the same terrifying ecstasy. This is the moment when the physical eyes see the complete reality of space/time, of which our visual world forms only a small part.
The Physical Eyes See Complete Reality
Kali’s Eyes Stare Straight Ahead

Relativity and quantum mechanics both teach that space/time is static. This reality need not be confined to mathematical formulae, or remain a mere scientific concept. It can be experienced bodily, as the statuettes show. If all of time and space is present here and now, it follows logically, and in the most down-to-earth way, that the moment of my death is present here and now. I can look at it, experience it. This is what Vajrasattva and Kali are staring into — the fact of ending. This is what the corpse Shiva has already achieved. So what, then, does his phallus indicate? Surely a dead body is an inert, flaccid thing. On the level of reality where this trigger of Kundalini is found, ending is an action. It’s frightening, but it is something that is done. Ending is not something that’s inflicted on me, even though my body might be in a state of prostrate inertia.

This is not sexual fantasy either. It’s the moment when experience accords most with reality. Our bodies, including our brains, are made up of subatomic particles. Quantum mechanics shows that subatomic particles are not "things," they’re "events." My body is an "event" moving through days and nights that are a matrix of "events." Kali riding Shiva is an "event." Vajradhatvisvari climbing the Thunderbolt Sceptre’s body is an "event." And, as Feynman showed in his space/time maps, every subatomic event is marked by the annihilation of the initial particles and the creation of new ones. Vajrasattva’s eyes and Kali’s eyes are wide and stare-y, on the brink of terror, because consciousness can go down to this depth. The inner eyes can keep open even at this moment of becoming void. This is do-able. It’s more than a verbal concept. Consciousness, at the most fundamental level, is a quantum process. It’s been shown experimentally that the human eye, when it becomes adapted to the dark, can detect a single photon, with its zero mass, and its status as both wave and particle.
A quantum process of consciousness triggers Kundalini, but the question remains, why, then, does Kundalini have such a radical effect on the external, physical body and on the human brain? If the trigger is so subtle, how can what it triggers — Kundalini — be so outwardly powerful?

The universe is held together by four forces: the strong force, the electromagnetic force, the weak force and the gravitational force. The strong force binds atomic nuclei together. The electromagnetic force is the force that holds in balance the process of attraction and repulsion between charged particles, and allows particles to form new combinations. The weak and gravitational forces work on more long-range interactions. Kundalini is experienced as power because Kundalini begins as a flash, a "lightning flash," of the strong force (Vajra also means "Diamond Thunderbolt") at the nucleus of the atom, and then works outwards, or rises, through the more material manifestations of the electromagnetic and weak forces (the body in space and time). This is why the circumstances that surround a Kundalini awakening can seem so confusingly varied. The sexual symbolism of the statues is appropriate, because this lightning flash that triggers Kundalini, is very similar to what can happen at the moment of orgasm, if consciousness strips itself down to nothing, so that orgasm is suspended and something else comes into being.

Wednesday, August 5, 2015

Transphysical Energy Activation During Fast Sleep

 ~ Speculations over a recent personal 13 minutes fast sleep experience ~

Introduction - Terminology
Due to the unusual nature of my experience I am going to use some newly created terms not contained in any English dictionary.

Normal Sleep
According to Wikipedia, sleep, as we all know it, is a naturally recurring state of mind characterized by altered consciousness, relatively inhibited sensory activity, inhibition of nearly all voluntary muscles, and reduced interactions with surroundings. In my text, I call this “normal sleep.” During an eight-hour night, this type of sleep undergoes several phases. Wikipedia categorizes at least four phases of sleep in detail.

Out of Body

Fast Sleep
This is actually a type of normal sleep that lasts a very short time. Normal Sleep lasts a few hours, but Fast Sleep, according to my personal experiences, is Normal Sleep that lasts anywhere from 5 to 15 minutes. Fast Sleep could also be understood as one or more hours of Normal Sleep that bestow the same benefits on the brain and body in only a few minutes  as many hours of Normal Sleep. I am not able to specify if this very short sleep contains all four phases (of a normal eight hours night time sleep). I tried to make an experiment at a clinic where electrodes would be placed on my brain, but the neurologist had to cancel the meeting. So, I don’t have an answer to this important question.

Unconscious Sleep
Due to the lack of answers and scientific measurements, I can’t specify what phases occur during a fast sleep experience. Therefore, the only difference I observe over the past 2-3 years is that all my sleep experiences consist of two parts. One part is completely unconscious and I am cut off from all sensory inputs. We all experience this and, according to Wikipedia, it is likely associated with what they describe as NREM Stage 2 (N2 - 45-55% of total sleep in adults) and NREM Stage 3 (N3 - 15–25% of total sleep in adults, i.e., deep sleep, slow-wave sleep), in which the sleeper is less responsive to the environment and during which environmental stimuli no longer produce any reaction.

Coming Back to Your Body

Semiconscious Sleep
This is either a transitory phase or a unique phase of Fast Sleep. According to Wikipedia, the closest analogy I can come up with is NREM Stage 1 (N1 - 5-10% of total sleep in adults, i.e., light sleep, somnolence, drowsy sleep). But what I have actually experienced is, at least in good part, different from what Wikipedia describes. In this type of sleep, which in the majority of cases is a unique phase of Fast Sleep, I fall asleep, I close my eyes, I feel more and more drawn towards a deeper state of sleep, my muscles begin to relax one by one, and finally my diaphragmatic muscles relax and my breathing enters a noisy, snoring phase.

Here what's unusual: I am not cut off from auditory and tactile senses. I can hear my own snoring and I can hear (and then remember in the awakened state) a normal conversation in the room, if there are other people present and if they are not making loud noises. I can hear music and, while sleeping, I become conscious of the fact that I am asleep. In my entire life, I never had these experiences before my biological transformation. Because my muscles are completely relaxed, I cannot say if I'm cut off from my visual sense or not, because my eyes are closed, but I can tell the difference between light and no light in the room or if the light suddenly increases. At first, when this happened, and for the very first time in my life, I began to hear my own snoring. I woke up immediately because I felt frightened. Always the same stupid question “Who’s there?” woke me up in seconds. But after hundreds of the same experiences, I got used to this, and my mind didn’t raise that question anymore.

Inception, the movie
For those who had not watched this movie, it would be better to watch it before reading the rest of my story. Here is a brief description from the IMDb that underscores the film's merits and good ratings.

My personal experience – the story as it happened 
Although I had been experiencing the Fast Sleep phenomenon for more than two years since my transphysical energy activation, what I am about to describe diverges decidedly from the sleep experiences I was used to. Fast Sleep in my case is a short 10-15 minutes Semiconscious Sleep which occurs at the confluence between normal awakened and normal sleep. At the border, somehow, the conscious mind is not fully at sleep. The hearing sense remains active and I hear my slow, snoring breath. Nighttime sleep is composed of several episodes of Fast Sleep alternating with Unconscious Sleep, the total length of which amounts to somewhere between 3 to 5 hours, for an average of four hours. During daylight I may have one or two Fast Sleep episodes, all of them semiconscious, with the hearing sense active, but lasting no more then 15 minutes.

What I am about to describe is very speculative and is based upon a unique experience which happened on June 12th, 2015 at exactly 11:30 am while I was watching a Stargate Atlantis episode. At that moment, I felt I was dropping into Fast Sleep, which is nothing unusual for me. I observed that if I allow myself to be drawn into sleep, I’ll feel much better for a long time after awakening. So I acquiesced instantly, but used the remote control to stop the film, thinking I’d resume watching it later. I was in bed, and when the moment came, I put my right hand over the top of the remote control, which was on a table next to the bed. I pressed the pause button…then my fingers relaxed over the remote and in just seconds I fell asleep. In little less than one minute, I slipped into Semiconscious Sleep; my hearing was active and could hear ambient sounds.

I was in a Semiconscious Sleep state; I was also aware of the passage of time (over the past two years I had learned to accurately estimate how much time I was spending in each state). This time, I experienced about 7 minutes of Semiconscious Fast Sleep that I’ll call Level 1.

What happened next…well, this was really unusual. Suddenly, I fell into a much deeper state of sleep that I'll call Level 2. I began dreaming. In Level 2, I was cut off from the hearing sense, but the visual sense became partially active and I saw some indescribable pictures flashing by in a kind of place where I was involved in doing something, exactly what I am now unable to recall. The impression I retained after awakening from Level 2 was that I was there for at least 35 to 45 minutes. I had the impression of spending 40 minutes there whatever “there” was. When I awoke in my room, the TV was still on, the movie was frozen on the still picture frame where I had stopped it before going to sleep. I tried pressing the Play button to resume watching the movie, but the button didn’t appear to function and the LED indicator of the HD player displayed Fast Rewind, a signal that it was re-synching to the frame where it had been stopped.

I suddenly realized that I was still sleeping and that I only passed from a Level 2 dream into a Level 1 dream, and I was dreaming this scenario of pressing the button on the remote. After very short time, I was completely awake. The interesting part of these details is that the HD player has a screensaver and if it pauses for more than 15 minutes, the screensaver automatically switches on. But this had not yet happened. So with this interesting information, I could make some measurements.

I estimated my total sleep at 13 minutes: passing from awake to Level 1 took approximately 1 minute, being there lasted about 7 minutes, semiconscious, hearing active. Then came the Level 2 sleep, whose duration was yet to be determined. Another minute was spent returning to Level 1, which included seeing the room for the first time while asleep. All of this felt very realistic. There was nothing astral about it; I was not outside my body. This is very important to mention. I was not having an “above view” or a "view from the corners of the room.” I estimate the duration of my Level 2 dreaming inside the dream had lasted no longer than 4 minutes although my impression was that I was there about 40 minutes.

The resemblance of this story with the movie Inception is so shocking. People will say that my account is a fake, a self-deception because I was influenced by the movie. But what if it was real? Scientific geniuses might conserve an amazing amount of time while asleep. For example, eight hours of this type of sleep could actually correspond to 80 hours of energized, uninterrupted work.

There are stories about people experiencing unusual states of consciousness and making amazing discoveries. In Inception, the three levels of sleep are represented as: 10 seconds in Level 1 means 3 minutes in Level 2 which means 60 minutes in Level 3, and about 20 years in Level 4. Obviously, Inception is a sci-fi movie, but I now see there is a seed of truth in it, one I never thought I’d experience in my life.

Sunday, July 26, 2015

Kundalini And Time

We all feel, inwardly, at some deep level, that time is an illusion. Daily life, with its pleasures and problems, makes this illusion — that one moment follows another — irresistibly strong. But there’s still an inkling that what the physicists say is true: space and time are one and the same thing, and this space/time continuum is static. Every event that has ever been, and that ever will be, in the physical universe, is here, now, with us. Even if we only feel it as a hunch, the desire remains, at a fundamental level, to make the time illusion more than an abstract concept, in fact, to live it, and so free ourselves from it.

Paul Lyons book, Natalie, an erotic kundalini thriller
When the mind, body and subtle body are cleansed and grow still, Kundalini awakes a precious understanding: that the brain itself is an event. The brain isn’t just a lump of cells and tissue stuck inside the skull. Neural matter is an event, an action, emerging from the energy field at a frequency so high it can’t be registered, and therefore seems solid. The brain is in constant movement, and this is what creates the illusion of time — time is the surges of energy moving from left to right, and from right to left, from hemisphere to hemisphere of the thing inside our skulls.
Time is an illusion, but the illusion has a rhythm, and there are moments within that rhythm when Kundalini grows more intense, and it’s possible to experience the time illusion bodily. In daily life, one side of the brain dominates the other side, and there is a switching between hemispheres which is essential for our biological survival. Constant left hemisphere dominance would destroy the brain with too much outwardness, and constant right hemisphere dominance would destroy the brain with too much inwardness. In meditation, the switch from hemisphere to hemisphere takes place about every ninety minutes, and there’s a moment when the two hemispheres are in sync. This occurs naturally. It can’t be controlled. But it is an opportunity, because it’s then that Kundalini is concentrated in the susumna nadi, the central channel, beyond time. 
That Kundalini is as much out in the cosmos as it is inside the body can be proved by personal observation: There are two moments in the day when Kundalini is at Her most powerful: at dawn and at dusk, the “cracks in the world” of traditional wisdom. At dawn and at dusk, the physical universe becomes both expectant and poignant. Expectant, because profound change is possible. Poignant because change takes time.
The other morning, as the sun was coming up, a crow glided down from somewhere and landed on the fence in our garden. My eyes saw feathers and claws grasp splintery wood. My body registered weight, vibration, a bird-shaped form shaking a loose paling. My brain knew it was simply watching a crow landing on a fence. But what overwhelmed me — what Kundalini saw — were feathers, claws, a fence that were made of time. The crow’s — and the fence’s — substance was nothing but time. I was lucky enough to be at one of those instants when the two hemispheres were in sync and Kundalini took over the central channel, because my body changed, it too was made of time. It had no substance outside an event that included both me and the crow and the fence, and, suddenly, everything.