Monday, June 29, 2015

Being Certain in an Uncertain World

The most important factor in my life was not the result of a conscious decision — although aspects of the decision making process were present. Most important was my recognition — at an early age — that there was something out there beyond the physical, something of a more ethereal nature.

Once your psyche perceives this, you are hooked because you take on the challenge of proving it to yourself, a challenge you will never relinquish. It may take a lifetime, but this recognition provides the basis for building a life founded on certainty in an uncertain world.

This is not something derived from traditional religion; it comes from within. It happens in spite of the influence of the elemental world around you. In fact, it is counter to everything the world teaches you, counter to all its conditioning and indoctrination. For me, the final step in my process of self-knowledge was listening to my body after mindlessly damaging it:
"The mind and the body really aren’t friends. The mind is a tool of the culture, an expert propagandist for fitting in. Yet, as the mind drowns out the truth, the body continues to tell it. Which is your real friend? The body, you say. Do you listen to it? I didn’t. And yet, at some level, I must have. I never would have made it back otherwise. Spiraling out control, there has to be some measure of omniscience, or else recovery is impossible. The mind is just too strong. It campaigns incessantly for all the things you think you ought to be doing, all the things you think you are missing. How can you possibly stand up to the supplications of the mind? Nevertheless, as my abilities decline, I keep a sense of awareness in spite of the things my new persona tells me about myself. Without it, I would never have found a way to restore myself."
~ Deciphering the Golden Flower One Secret at a Time – JJ Semple
At an early age, a jolt of higher consciousness invaded my psyche and set me deliberating on the possibility that something greater surrounded me, that I was attached to a field of greater knowledge — a knowledge not acknowledged by the orthodoxies of worldly life. Gopi Krishna explains it thusly:
"The first reality we come across is consciousness. The world comes later. We know first ourselves and then the world. So the wiser course is first to understand the knower. What modern thinkers have done is to ignore or bypass the knower, forgetting that it is the knower that is doing it."
~ The Awakening of Kundalini—Gopi Krishna
These early murmurs of the psyche were almost immediately buried beneath the so-called "adjustment process" that fitting into worldly life requires us to follow. Buried, but not dead. Inert, but not extinct. All it took was an occasional murmur of the heart to awaken it.

Gee, maybe there is something out there. Maybe, I should explore it. But where to start? Could I be missing something in the sermon? At church? I feel it but have no idea of how to reach for it. Don't wait so long to think about it again. Maybe I'll understand it better the next time.

And there is always a next time. Whether it's a stirring in the body, or an instance of thrall. A chord struck while reading a novel. A sunset. A passionate kiss. An itch waiting to be scratched.

HeartMath: Inner Balance sensor for iOS

Eventually, I did something about the itch. I started to explore hypnosis, yoga, all methods of meditation, and I started to do a whole lot of reading; I was about 27 years old. I didn't necessarily associate my various explorations with the presentiment that there was something out there. At first, I took these activities at face value. I hadn't really thought the whole thing through, not to the magnitude that my exploration would eventually lead me to. Although I began to see the elemental, material world for what it is — a kind of illusory distraction — I didn't connect my childhood presentiments to the yoga and meditation I was now practicing.

In other words, I had no coherent model of  cosmology. That would come later. What does this cosmology consist of? Adi Da Samraj describes it thusly:
"Precisely what is wrong with the universal scientism of modern society — and the forms of politics that derive from that scientism — is that the modern scientific 'world'-view and modern politics do not permit the human being his or her psyche.

"Scientism constantly forces the human being to stand face to face with nothing but elemental 'experience.' It denies all reality to the higher dimensions — which, since ancient times, have been recognized by human beings as their fundamental resource.

"Scientism denies the connection to the energies and 'creative' sources of the 'world.' Human beings are denied right 'religion' and true Spirituality by scientism.

"Scientism is simply an activity of the verbal mind. It is oriented toward the investigation of elemental phenomena without any psychic participation in the 'world.'

"Even when scientists investigate phenomena that are not merely elemental, but that belong to the realm of energies and the psyche, they do not study these things through the psyche. They study them 'objectively,' as if these invisibles were butterflies under a pin.

"However, in order to investigate such phenomena, one must enter into 'consideration' of them through the medium of the psyche — through feeling, through intuition, through all the aspects of the mind and heart that precede verbal consciousness.

"In this 'late-time' (or 'dark' epoch), people are not permitted to recognize and acknowledge the invisible dimensions of existence. Nor are they permitted any psychic connection to those dimensions, or to anything else for that matter.

"People are encouraged to watch TV and go to work and wait for science to save everyone. But science can never save anyone. Science is not a 'method' of salvation."
~ The Gnosticon - Adi Da Samraj
Science is supposedly value neutral, but is it? Even back then, when I started exploring, I came to realize that science was not the answer. It was always one step forward-one step back. The Salk vaccine-the atom bomb...scientists ready to dedicate themselves to research, no matter how benevolent, how heinous. As in the Dr. Strangelove-esque, I'm only a scientist; I was ordered to do it. They told me it was for the good of man.

Eureka, CA
Abandoned Nuclear Energy Plant

And what about Kundalini? How does it fit into the above cosmology?

For me, Kundalini was the ultimate confirmation that existence is something more than the "scientismistic" definition we limit it to. Not only did Kundalini make sense of the cosmology I uncovered, reaffirming my Being's relationship the "higher dimensions," it also made sense of science. If the Kundalini sub-system exists in our bodies, it must be there for a reason, and that reason boils down to the realization that human evolution is a work in progress.

Kundalini is the instrument that links human biology to higher consciousness. It is responsible for our bodily substantiation, and for our past, present, and future evolution. Our form, our brain, our consciousness! All are related to the Kundalini in us and all are still evolving. And that is what science should be studying — the biological aspects of Kundalini and its connection to consciousness.

Suppose you do have an itch to explore beyond the elemental. Young or old, it makes no difference. In your heart you know there's something out there. Metaphysical, astral, causal, etheric. Whatever you want to call it. No matter. Nurturing the recognition, never letting go of it leads to a series of innate revelations that no amount of propaganda can dispel. To be certain of one thing in life is an immense accomplishment.

And unlike most of the underlying assumptions of elemental life, based on sensory programming and hand-me-down opinions, you don't have to take someone else's word for what you discover along the Way. By finding out for yourself, you have emptied the memory banks of preconceived notions, zeroed the atomic clock back to its primordial beginning, stripped the psyche bare, and started over.

Finding certainty in an uncertain world takes courage. So does unbelieving all acquired beliefs. Yet compared to what you've been told about the world and how it functions, being certain of even one little thing, when those around you are certain of nothing, is not only a whole different paradigm, it's a manifest advantage in exploring the infinite reaches of eternity.

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

Kundalini and Creativity

When I was twelve, I read a poem about aboriginal rock carvings by the Australian poet, Douglas Stewart. It was a mystical poem, and knocked me out. I decided on the spot to be a great artist. A financially secure career meant nothing to me. Neither did helping people or serving humanity. What could serve humanity better than my latest ode or beating five bells out of Beethoven on the old upright?

I won a scholarship to study Shakespeare at Cambridge, redefining his sonnets in the light of my own, and got kicked out at the end of the first year.

Art is important. It's a way of communicating without losing our essential, and precious, solitude. The lives and states of consciousness of the people who carved the whales and kangaroos in rock cave walls are barely imaginable, and yet, by some sort of magic, they are there in the grooved sandstone and in Douglas Stewart's celebration of their art. Poetry, painting, music, film can communicate the "ideograms harvested in another dimension" that JJ Semple speaks of as part of a Kundalini activation.

Kundalini is an evolutionary force. How might a widespread awakening of Kundalini affect the evolution of art?

After a decade or so in the wilderness — "Fuck off, I'm an artist!" — I realized that art involves other people. Creativity is a means of communication, a social act. I went to the opposite extreme. I became obsessed with finding an audience, researching the market, and locating my genre.

I published a comic novel lampooning my visionary self and won a fellowship from the Australia Literature Board. I found myself, briefly, in the world of agents, publishing houses and pundits. It was a wasteland. Everywhere I looked, creativity was hijacked by suits. Fat cats pushed their way between musician and listener, between writer and reader. The fiery visions of Dada and Absurdism had ended up in the drab absurdity of art-as-investment. The fact that fine creators (Orchestre Baobab, Elmore Leonard, Banksie) survive in this climate is a testament to human resilience, not to the cultural wasteland we're forced to share.

I'm sure the widespread awakening of Kundalini will bring about as profound an advance in the creative arts as it does in mental and bodily health. So what form will this advance take?

I try to imagine the first Australians as they carved the rock. There'd have been no celebrities, no tortured geniuses. Physical conditions would have been hard, but the hardship would have paled away to nothing in the presence of the spirits the carvers were chiseling. The act of creation would have involved the whole community, been a shared act, transporting all the participants into a transcendental state.

A widespread awakening of Kundalini could produce a comparable creativity in a modern context. When Kundalini comes up the spine, tortured genius pales into insignificance in comparison to what is happening to the body and the brain. If Kundalini prompts a person to write or paint or sing, the book, picture or song they produce will speak to the Kundalini in readers, viewers and listeners. It will find them, usually close at hand. There'll be a psychic connection between the creator and his/her audience. Audiences will become smaller and more local as the number of artists grows, till everyone becomes a creator with their own audience.

I think this is already beginning to happen. Peggy Payne, in a recent interview with JJ Semple, spoke of the "trance of art" as being one of the effects of Kundalini awakening, and I think that this "trance" is becoming more widespread and accessible, at the same time as it becomes more local and intimate.

I don't beat up Beethoven on the piano so much these days. I play keyboards in the pub with my mate Joe's band, a hundred or so people packed in, half of them family, foot stomping, dancing, joining in the choruses of unrecorded songs Cold Play would eat their hearts out to have written.

Front Cover: Natalie

I still write. Novels are my personal art form. The latest, Natalie, A Kundalini Love Story, about, and inspired by, Kundalini now out with Life Force Books.

Tuesday, June 9, 2015

The Proper Study of Kundalini is Kundalini

Why are so many books on Kundalini in the West written by people who have never had a Kundalini experience? In the East, it's the practitioners that students seek out, the ones with experience. Not those who sit in libraries, copying information from other sources, lord knows, how many times removed from an actual Kundalini experience. And not just any Kundalini experience — permanently active Kundalini.

I've shared venues with other speakers lecturing on Kundalini, some of whom, it turned out, never had a Kundalini experience. Strikes me as somewhat inadequate, but indicative of the outsized value we in the West place on second hand research, degrees, and diplomas. Now to get a degree, you have to get a good SAT score; you have to score well. And to score well, you have to understand the game, know what's expected of you. Do you have to think or act creatively? No. All you have to do meet expectations. In fact, the people that score well by meeting expectations carry this trait over into their careers. They know how to meet expectations, to score well. The quintessential definition of a YES man. That's what the SAT test creates. Individuals who are prepared to please.

What do Orson Welles, William Blake, Stanley Kubrick, Michael Faraday, Woody Allen, Jacob Boƫme, George Bernard Shaw, Socrates, and Ben Franklin have in common? All of them are autodidacts. Self taught by doing, by on the job training.

Would you take flying lessons from someone who's never flown? Then you'd be dealing with opinion and not fact. And that's just what you get from a book that's been written by someone who's never had a Kundalini experience: Opinions about how it might work as opposed to facts about how it does work.

I'm not against reading; I read a lot myself. Less that I used to, especially since I have so much Kundalini material to work with. Reading and research are fine up to a point. Sri Ramakrishna said, "Do you know my attitude? Books, scriptures, and things like that only point out the way to reach God. After finding the way, what more need is there of books and scriptures? Then comes the time for action."

So why do so many people spend so much time searching for spiritual meaning when scientists tell them that, aside from anecdotal accounts, there is scant evidence that metaphysics are real? Probably for the same sense-of-urgency reasons that drive so many physical scientists to experiment on themselves, using their bodies as laboratories. Here is a sampling of three cases from Wikipedia:
"One evening in June 1984 Dr. Barry Marshall walked into the hospital lab, opened a test tube and added several eyedroppers of a light gray liquid to a glass beaker filled with broth. With a quick toss of the head, he swallowed the foul tasting concoction. Within 72 hours, he was doubled over in pain with a roaring case of clinical gastritis, a precursor to ulcers. Severe vomiting and stomach pain kept him awake for nights. He shuddered to think of what it was like for patients who had such symptoms on and off for years. But by the time he started the antibiotic/bismuth treatment, his system had managed to eradicate the germ."
"JBS Haldane, a notable British biologist, is yet another example of a scientist who conducted experiments upon himself. Haldane was a keen experimenter, and was more than willing to expose himself to danger in order to obtain the desired data. One such experiment involving elevated levels of oxygen saturation triggered a fit which resulted in him suffering crushed vertebrae. In his decompression chamber experiments, Haldane and his volunteers suffered perforated eardrums, but, as Haldane stated in What is Life, 'The drum generally heals up; and if a hole remains in it, although one is somewhat deaf, one can blow tobacco smoke out of the ear in question, which is a social accomplishment.'"
"Roger Altounyan developed the use of sodium cromoglycate as a remedy for asthma, based on khella, a traditional Middle Eastern remedy, with experiments on himself."
How do these relate to Kundalini and consciousness? These researchers realized that the only way to test their discoveries was from the inside-out, in contrast to the scientific method that prescribes experiments based on observation (the outside-in approach). If the remedy worked on them, they thought, it must work on others. And because they faced steadfast opposition from scientists taking the outside-in approach, this proved to be the only way of moving their work forward. They recognized the moment and they acted!

Yes, using the body as a laboratory is lonely, dangerous work. You have to learn to rely on your intuition and summon up abilities you never knew you had. Outside acceptance and validation are rare. What's more, even if you do reach your goal, don't expect a Nobel Prize. It takes a big person to acknowledge their opposition was ill-founded: "Even Walter Peterson [Chief of Gastroenterology at the Veterans Affairs Medical Center in Dallas], long a skeptic of Marshall's theories, has come around. He says now, 'We scientists should have looked beyond Barry's [Dr. Barry Marshall] evangelical patina and not dismissed him out of hand.' Agrees Vanderbilt's Blaser, 'Science needs solid research, but it also needs someone with great vision. Barry had vision.'"

In any case, the inside-out approach, the one material scientists call anecdotal accounts, is valid. If it doesn't fit the strict requirements of the scientific method, it's not because a given metaphysical experience never happened, it's because we don't have the proper tools for measuring metaphysical phenomena at this point. We will... someday. It's too bad there isn't an open dialogue, because scientists and meta-physicists should be working together not only on the true nature of consciousness, but on methods to heighten it.

Chico Fountain: Kundalini awakenings let you stick out from the crowd
To Play is To Create; To Create is To Play
Just because someone tells you metaphysical experience is not valid doesn't mean it really is, that your experience didn't really happen, that it's all in your mind. They said that to Dr. Barry Marshall, to Dr. Paul Erlich, to Dr. John Lilly, too. But they moved ever forward, in spite of the opposition: "When Barry Marshall finally presented his and Warren's findings before an international conference of microbiologists in Brussels in September 1983, he was greeted with some skepticism. Unschooled at such presentations and filled with boyish eagerness, he refused to respond to questions in the measured, cautious manner of most researchers. Asked whether he though the bacteria were responsible for some ulcer disease, Marshall replied, 'No, I think they're responsible for all ulcer disease.'

"Such blanket statements, backed only by small studies and anecdotal case histories alarmed many researchers. Microbiologist Martin Blaser, an infectious disease expert from Vanderbilt University who attended the conference, said, 'At that time, I thought the guy was a madman.'"

What makes scientists so skeptical? For one, it's their training, and that's a good thing. But when it comes to new horizons, such as metaphysics, they seem as closed-mined as the 15th Century knuckleheads who persecuted Leonardo da Vinci. Material scientists tend to lump accounts of metaphysical experience, including such widely occurring phenomenon as Near Death Experience (NDE), in with religion, forgetting, it seems, that Kundalini and near death experiences occur across cultures, geography, and language to people of all religions, including those who profess no religion at all. Saying Kundalini isn't biology, it's religion is the same sort of short-sighted comment directed at Dr. Barry Marshall when they told him bacteria didn't cause ulcers; stress and worry did... Until he proved the conventional wisdom wrong, that is.

I'd love to tell you there's a quick fix, that raising Kundalini is easy to do and easy to live with. From reading the letters people write to me, I know it isn't. It wasn't for me and it hasn't been for them. Activating Kundalini takes time. Is it wrong to experiment? Not at all. The world today is a laboratory of experimentation. Millions of people, young and old, working to achieve self-knowledge and higher consciousness. Some flounder; some go straight to their goal. All I can add is: Keep on trying. Take action. Try all, and everything. But be prepared to discard whatever it is if it doesn't ring true. Don't be a YES man to enhancing consciousness. But don't be afraid it won't work either. Kundalini is coded into your bio-system. All you have to do is find the switch that triggers it. I used meditation, a seemingly benign pastime that ended up triggering bio-mechanisms (the sexual sublimation process) in my body that transformed my biological structure, and eventually my consciousness.

How do you recognize when the right system or technique comes along? You have to keep testing, listening to your body. The body knows (it's a biology laboratory), and if you're practicing — whatever that practice may be — your body will send you signals that you have to interpret. It won't steer you wrong. It's akin to auto-diagnosis.

Practice makes things happen. If nothing happens, try something else. Prefer primary sources over secondary. Talk to those who have already succeeded in a given practice, but do so with skepticism. Talk, read, think, travel, and remain skeptical. YOU are the proper study of YOU! All else is opinion and rationalization, not much good to you when the time does come. And it WILL!

Monday, June 8, 2015

Kundalini and the Blood System

At a certain point, when Kundalini irradiates the head with light and the presence of other universes are felt, the beating of the heart suddenly absorbs consciousness. Prana, which is registered as a lifting light, gives way to a sensation of being sucked into, and overwhelmed by, one's own heartbeat in a way that's different from our sporadic, everyday awareness of the pulse. The steady pumping pressure is accompanied by a feeling of being gripped and driven forward through space and time without our choosing it. Sometimes the sexual organs become engorged without any sexual contact or even consciousness of sex. If one is fortunate enough to be embracing one's partner at the time, his/her visual impact — the sexy eyes, alluring features and comely figure that so entranced and overpowered us a moment ago — are swallowed by this magnified beating of the heart. They literally disappear in the presence of the enhanced heart rhythm. And, strangely, ejaculation becomes impossible.

Kundalini awakes when there is a suspension — or at least a stilling, and a natural control — of bodily processes that are normally autonomic. Initially, this occurs in three areas:
  • Neural activity (experienced as thought)
  • Breathing
  • Ejaculation.
Processes which usually occur automatically are absorbed into a conscious stillness that generates great heat and energy. In all three areas, there is a reversal of "reality" as reality's transcendental source draws near. We experience the fact that consciousness creates the brain, and not vice-versa; that consciousness creates the lungs and respiratory system, and not vice-versa; and that consciousness creates the nervous and reproductive systems, and not vice-versa. And that prana and Kundalini are the "tools" it uses to do so. In effect, all of human biology — whether visible like the vascular system or concealed like Kundalini — is but an expression of consciousness.

Something similar happens to the heartbeat and to the circulation of the blood at those moments when we are absorbed into it. There's something about the heartbeat that's harder to approach, and to still, than breathing or even orgasm. There's a blind thrust that's nearer to the life force, and yet seems to bear no relation to our conscious, everyday being. The far-fetched metaphors of traditional love poetry take on a literal truth: the steady, spondaic pressure in our chests could as well be another person's heartbeat or our own, and, in a sense, it is. One hears the beating heart and feels the blood pumping through the body of a being who is as much the other person — any other person — as it is us. We approach the Atman, or Real Self, who is also everybody else. Love becomes the path to transcendence.

How one gets a handle on the heartbeat and stills the circulation of the blood is difficult to say. There are hints in traditional literature. The "albedo" or "white work" in alchemy, which refers to the action of prana, is superseded by the "rubedo" or "red work" on deeper physical structures through the action of the blood and "seeing with the heart."

Rudolph Steiner speaks of the "etherisation of the blood." "Tummo," the "blessed, inner heat" of Tibetan yoga is an authenticated physical fact. Milarepa meditated naked in the Himalayan snow and melted it for six feet around him by transferring heat from his blood system to the surface of his skin. These indications may help us, but, as with the other autonomic processes (thought, breath, and orgasm) it's best simply to let Kundalini bring one there, take one into it, and do it. 

Thursday, June 4, 2015

This Is SO Silly

As concerns Kundalini, I'm a big fan of making a common front. Not that all parties have to agree on all things Kundalini, it's just that when people experience something as life-changing as Kundalini, you'd expect it would lead to a tremendous scientific breakthrough. And it probably will...someday.

Rage against the Machine
Charles Chaplin - Modern Times (1936)
In the meantime, it would be nice if the individuals involved in promoting and evangelizing, researching and teaching, writing and speaking about Kundalini could find a way to collaborate, share, cooperate, and mutually support one another. After all:
"’s all about transformation through activating human energy potentials and yet…and yet, proprietary instincts keep us apart. We share this one goal — transformation via the energy-cultivation properties of Kundalini — and yet we don’t trust each other. Our baser instincts separate us, classify us, make us suspicious of one another and protective of the meager territories we stake out for ourselves. It's like the 49ers of old, rushing into the gold fields to stake a claim, spending more time defending a claim than mining its precious treasure.
"There are many systems out there. It’s hard to keep score in this new age of ours. The only thing that matters — it’s not our instincts or our pride — are the systems that work and the systems that don’t work."
Sacred Cow Terminology Obscures Real Meaning - JJ Semple
The Kundalini Consortium, Wednesday, March 20, 2013
For example, in the past I've been asked to place links from our sites to other Kundalini websites, which I'm more than willing to do, but...when I ask for a link to one of our sites in return, I'm met with a vacuous refusal — a response that completely floors me.

Think about it, soliciting a favor and then refusing to reciprocate is saying, My content is somehow more worthy than yours; I have the right to judge you, but you don't have the right to judge me. What is the source of this kind of thinking? It certainly isn't Kundalini. Kundalini has broadened my horizons, not diminished them. Most of the Kundalini people I know say the same thing: Kundalini lightens as well as enlightens, as in lightening the Being, making it more rarefied and and the mind more flexible.

Illustrating collaboration

You may disagree with me and my research on Kundalini, and that's fine; I probably disagree with some of the ideas you propose, but I'm more than willing to exchange links between our respective sites. If your site meets the basic standards of quality, we'll link to it.

Moreover, I'm open to discussion and finding common ground. After all, when a phenomenon meets as much outside resistance as Kundalini does, forming a common front makes a lot of sense. Intolerance is not only silly; it's suicidal. A common front makes people stand up and take notice, which leads to peer review and serious outside study.

Just about everyone I know has a different take on Kundalini. The Trigger and Effects they experienced were also different. But those differences don't mean we can't listen to or support each other, especially since, where Kundalini is today has more to do with science — it's biology, in case you didn't know it — than with religious doctrines.

Recently, we included a post by Cristian Muresanu, which provoked so much outrage that it was deleted from certain FB pages after I posted it there as an alternate approach to Kundalini. When queried, the deleter told me something like, "I know all I need to know about Kundalini."

That's a real scientific approach. A manifestation of clear thinking and openmidedness.

What I did when first approached by Cristian was to listen to him and try to place his experience in context with what I know to be true and what I have experienced. What struck me was the similarity of many symptoms and his ability to identify inner sensations and movements, even though he used a completely different name for his experience. That's right, he doesn't inflexibly refer to his experience as Kundalini; he uses the term Transphysical Energy Activation. And so what? It's not the term that's important; it's the experience.

As for the pictures of the spoons and the cellphone sticking to his head in his post, yes, you can become outraged, or you can take a scientific approach, asking Cristian to duplicate his experiment in front of witnesses, after first assuring all the elements are legit. And you can video it.

Anything but outrage! In fact, less outrage and less compartmentalization, and more tolerance, more acceptance. An energetic opening, a meditative lucidity, kind of like what Osho wrote:
"So be concerned with meditation and not with kundalini. And when you are aware, things will begin to happen in you. For the first time you will become aware of an inner world that is greater, vaster, more extensive than the universe; energies unknown, completely unknown, will begin to flow in you. Phenomena never heard of, never imagined or dreamed of, will begin to happen. But with each person they differ."

Tuesday, May 26, 2015

What's It like To Be Me?

So what is it like to be me? You may ask.
I really don't know if I'm up to the task of
Explaining again for the umpteenth time,
Especially in this example of metered rhyme,

But yes, well.. imagine that you're body's a sphere
Of invisible, transparent energy rare.
I can feel you with my mind that travels in this sphere;
I can feel your elation, your anger, your fear.

I get concepts that form with a liquid ambrosia,
New science emerging from my neural exposure
To Prana that flows up my spine and into my brain,
A pleasurable warmth, a gentle rain.

I feel you, I hear your, your voice and your thoughts,
I see another world together with this one, but it's not
The same. It is illumined with energy intrinsic,
The glowing radiance of all things existent.

When it comes to people I'm different, it's true.
You're not me and I'm not you.
A fish out of water, perhaps you believe,
But let me modify that belief and relieve

You of any doubt and tension that comes with your being,
I'm you, just evolved in an existential dream.

~ Neil Sinclair

PS. I hope the reader understands the humor of this poem...

Monday, May 18, 2015

The Four Dhyanas

In my previous post, I spoke about anapana, or “tying consciousness to the breath.” Anapana, or watching the breath, represents the beginning stage of the first of four dhyanas. What are dhyanas? Put simply, they represent the stages or progressions in meditative absorption.

According to the sutra, the first stage is marked by awareness and contemplation. Here “awareness” means the condition of physiological feeling and sensitivity to all that is going on internally. “Contemplation” means the condition of psychological awareness, knowing the coming and going of every thought. For me, it is as if my outward senses have been turned inward.

At the beginning of my daily meditation, there are certain things that I practice that have the effect of releasing me from wandering passions, desires, and unwholesome thoughts while moving me towards a joyful interest in what I am doing and a sense of well-being.

I start by listening to Santam Kaur’s song Ong Namo, the words that begin the centering process:

Ong Namo, Guru Dav, Namo,
Oh my Beloved, Kindness of the Heart, Breath of Life, I bow to You.
Divine Teacher, Beloved Friend, I bow to you again and again.
During the course of this song, I am able to move away from the exterior to become very aware of everything that is happening internally. At one point in the song, I direct my intention to the chakra areas and silently repeat the following sounds as my attention is given to each chakra starting with the root and emphasizing the Anahata or heart chakra: LAM, VAM, RAM, YAM - YAM, HAM, SHAM, CHREE-OM.


The second thing I do consistently and find very useful is to visualize the subtle body with its three main channels. The larger central channel begins at ajna chakra (third eye) runs over the crown of the head and down to the Svadhisthana or Sacral chakra. It’s exterior is pale blue with a reddish interior color. Starting at the inner nostrils and running parallel and on either side of the central channel are the smaller channels connected with the nostrils. The one on the right is red, and the other white. At each chakra point, starting at the crown, these two smaller channels cross over the larger central channel, one from the left, and the other from the right, curving around and returning back to their original position, but forming a loop or knot. At the Anahata or heart chakra, they loop three times, then continue this course until they reach the end at Svadhisthana or Sacral chakra.

In the practice of tying consciousness to breath (Anapana), on the inhale, I follow the breath from the nostrils, down the two smaller channels to the Svadhisthana or sacral chakras to the base of the central channel. On the exhale, I follow the breath up the central channel to the crown. I’m not sure of the exact point of connection with the central channel on the exhale, however, the breath seems to always follow my intention in this regard. In the tantra, this is called “Vase” breathing meditation, and is described is much more detail there.

Other Anapana practice that I do consistently at the beginning of my meditation period is alternating nostril breathing. I don’t cover a nostril as suggested for this practice. Directing the breath by intention does the same thing and keeps it simpler.

These exercises, along with the backward circular flow of breath in the abdomen area, always move me into the deeper absorption, increasing my awareness of a mindful joy of how I feel physically, and contentment as in peace and ease. It is as if the body and mind are beginning to sit in empty space. I have the experience of slowly surrendering to that which is beyond self.

In the second dhyana stage, the intellectual activity described above begins to fade and is replaced by tranquility and one-pointedness of mind. Joyful interest and sense of well-being are still present, but the awareness and contemplation are emptied out, and one experiences just the mindful joy of samadhi. At this point, I am no longer conscious of the flow of breath or its direction. In fact, I am not conscious of breathing at all. The joy and contentment of just being seems to heighten. There are no thoughts running around in confusion. They come, are recognized for what they are, and are immediately dismissed. This is not the stage of “no-mind” because there are still objects present, however they are not much of a distraction. At the early part of this stage, as a practice, I often explore and experience the impermanence of my physical form, senses, concepts, motivational synthesis, and discriminating consciousness.

In the third dhyana, the mindful joy and contentment fades and is replaced by the rise of bliss and a movement towards equanimity. In this stage, everything inside the body is going through a great transformation including to energy structures and channels and every cell and nerve. After realizing the third dhyana, we look upon previous realms of joy as being the same as that of any ordinary person because we have now reached a heightened joy. Master Nan Huai-Chin says that it is only after one reaches this stage that you can get rid of diseases.


I find that I can get attached to this stage if I’m not careful. Some of the practices I do are probably not the best for moving into deeper absorption. Bliss is a very enticing force, and I am inclined to enter into practices that serve to enhance it for its own sake. I have trouble at times discerning when it is best to continue with a practice, or just let it go. For example, sitting in siddhasana is one of the practices I do from the beginning of meditation. The rising energy from this practice affects every nerve and cell and increases the level of bliss throughout the whole body. One may erroneously believe that they have arrived when this happens, however, such beliefs are only an obstacle to further meditative absorption. I must eventually let go of the bliss and allow it to fade. The temptation is to hang on to it, and enhance it.

In the first three dhyanas, there is an increased awareness of that which exists beyond self (ultimate reality, presence).  As all the remnants of "I-ness" fade, it is as if you become that presence. The seeker becomes the sought.  
In the fourth dhyana, all sensation ceases and only mindful equanimity remains. This is the realm where both suffering and pleasure are extinguished, where sorrows or worries no longer exist. This is the stage of the beginning of pure mindfulness. According to the sutras, unless this stage can be preserved (body and mind, inner and outer, fused into one whole) then the fourth dhyana is not completely realized.

In meditative absorption, I have touched the fruits of this stage, but it is far from a permanent way of being. At times, I've wondered if the complete realization of this stage would take one out of the realm of day-to-day living and responsibility, but the sutras suggest not. Those who have mastered this stage are able to move to other realms to fulfill daily tasks and responsibilities, but still not lose their state of pure mindfulness, and return to it at will.

Wednesday, May 13, 2015

Transphysical Energy Activation is Significantly Changing my Diet

I began to experience new sensations...or whatever you want to call them...on account of my diet.

About 10 days ago, while being intimate with my girlfriend, I experienced (as has been happening since August 2014) another energy implosion. After, which was quite unusual for me, I have not been able to eat solid food since. If I want to, I first I have to wait 10 hours to feel the least bit hungry.

Transphysical Bio-magnetic action at work
Cristian with 3 Spoons Stuck to his Forehead
Before I understood what was going on, something else happened...repeatedly. I used to eat only 150-250 grams of solid food for my afternoon meal. After the implosion, I observed my stomach experiencing the sensation of "too much." At first, I couldn't explain it because nothing in the daily ratios of my diet had changed. This sensation persisted every time I ate solid food and repeated itself 10 times in 10 days. The food I ate was either boiled mashed potato with salad, boiled mashed chickpeas or beans with salad, or boiled cereals with salad. So, I asked myself: What on earth is wrong with this food?

Each day after eating one of these combinations, I felt distended, my stomach was swollen, and only after many hours did the sensation begin to fade away. That was the moment I realized I had to adjust my diet to include more liquids and fluids. Only yesterday, did I discover there was nothing wrong with the food. It was simply too much for my digestive system and my stomach refused to accept anything above what was actually needed. Before that happened, I weighed the amount of cereals I boiled, otherwise I'd have to throw away the extra amount. I do this every time I eat solid food.

So, for the moment, all I can eat is very fresh and uncut (and this is also weird … WHY uncut ?) foods. A few grams of fresh dill leaves, parsley, a little radish, a single cabbage leaf, two slices of onion, one little hot pepper, and a glass of water after. I no longer feel distended. Another weird thing is that when I eat, I eat each food separately, not mixed together. I eat them uncut, and I don't understand why I like them this way and not cut and mixed like before. Everybody except me cuts vegetables and salads into small pieces, adds vinegar, oil, salt. I do not.

The rest of the time, if I feel hungry, I can only drink liquids, for example, flavored black tea in the morning, then, in the afternoon, some kind of dehydrated vegetable soup in one liter of energized water, which becomes instantly hydrated and tastes good. I'm not losing weight at all. I am happy that I am also not gaining weight. My girlfriend is experiencing the same symptoms; we are connected beyond time and distance. That is an entirely new, long story.

Transphysical Bio-magnetic action at work
Cristian with a Cellphone Stuck to his Forehead

And this phenomenon had been also correlated with the fact that my initial biomagnetism capability (consisting of one 5-8 gram spoon "sticking" to my forehead) has now amplified, enabling my 80 gram mobile phone to stick to my forehead. My hands also began to feel sticky.

Monday, May 11, 2015

Kundalini and Consciousness

Consciousness is a strange and powerful thing.

Consciousness is so weird, it's not quite right to speak about having consciousness, or even of being conscious.

My friends are intelligent and sympathetic people, but when I tell them that Kundalini is a biological eruption in every cell of the body, of a consciousness that lies beyond the body — they laugh themselves silly.

Materialism is the unquestioned faith of our day. When they've stopped laughing, my friends assure me that consciousness is just a chemical reaction in the brain. They point out that different mental and physical functions can be located in different parts of the cerebral cortex, and that when a particular part of the brain is damaged a corresponding bodily or mental function is lost.

This is the twenty-first century equivalent of pious Victorian churchgoers pointing to the forms and structures of nature and leaping to the conclusion that a Deity must have designed them.

Consciousness comes before all this. Consciousness takes precedence. You need the presence of consciousness before you can even begin to study the brain and map it with electrodes. Consciousness remains, in deep sleep and coma, even when the various neural functions are lost or damaged. The brain is a response to this presence of consciousness.

A damaging result of materialist religiosity is that in our day-to-day lives we assume that consciousness is a weak, negligible thing, a helpless passenger carried along by the drives and addictions of our bodies, when, in fact, the very reverse is true. When Kundalini is awake, the body is in the grip of consciousness. A fathomless intelligence takes charge of every ganglion and synapse.

One of the most powerful effects of Kundalini awakening is what it does to love, and to the act of love. Our partner is no longer a distant object towards whom we struggle with our senses and mind in the hope of finding a little closeness. Neither are they just a separate personality that might, if we are lucky, happen to dovetail with whatever separate personality we happen to be stuck with. When Kundalini is active, our loved-one's face and body, their mind and their personality, come spinning out of a vortex of consciousness that is as beyond them as it is beyond us. We feel the same vortex of consciousness absorb us, our senses and our minds, from the base of the spine upwards as union becomes real, and love more than a dove-tailed closeness.

The Tantras describe the susumna nadi, the central, spinal channel, as having two thin, tube-like nadis inside it — the brahma nadi and the citrini nadi — where the Kundalini energy gets closer and closer to sheer consciousness. The citrini nadi is "as fine as the thousandth part of a hair, and pierces all the lotuses, and is pure intelligence" as Kundalini, "She who is outside the universe, and goes upwards," awakes.

Wednesday, May 6, 2015

Tying Consciousness to Breath - Anapana

In the Ekottara-Agama Sutra, Buddha teaches his son, Rahula. The first question Rahula asks is: "How can I practice anapana in order to get rid of my sadness and worries and be free of all thoughts?"

Straighten out your body and make it correct. Straighten out your mind and make it correct. Straightening out one’s body has to do with putting it in a comfortable position for meditating. Straightening out one’s mind involves breathing. Controlling the bird of thought is a matter of breath. If you cannot get hold of thoughts, they will run in confusion. If you cannot concentrate your thoughts, it is because one’s breath is scattering. When the breath scatters in confusion, then the mind scatters in confusion as well.

The Buddha advises his son “tie your consciousness to your nose.” Imitate the white crane. When the crane stops and rests, its nose faces its anus, and the two breaths circulate together. The phrase “tie your consciousness to your nose” does not mean to observe the nose. It means to pay attention to your breath as you breathe in and out. Make your consciousness follow your breath. Be aware of everything in respect to your breath. How long is the inhalation? How long is the exhalation? Is it a cold exhalation or inhalation? Is it a warm exhalation or inhalation? Observe in full detail as your body breathes in and out, and be aware of it all. The results will be that the power of memory will be very good and your brain will be especially alert.
~ Master Nan Huai-Chin - Adapted from Working Towards Enlightenment

Exhale - Hold - Inhale - Hold: The Breathing Cycle
Belly Action in the Breathing Cycle

JJ Semple in his book Deciphering The Golden Flower One Secret At A Time, writes:
“Observing my breath as I sit one morning, I am aware that it has the property of direction. At each inhalation the hitherto imperceptible wind in my belly appears to eddy slightly at the bottom of my abdomen as it descends before taking an upward circular course. Or so it appears to me: Down the back, then up the front, in a circular motion. Something clicks. I remember the words ‘backward-flowing method’ in The Secret of the Golden Flower, words I’ve passed over a hundred times, never having a clue as to what they meant, never imagining they might be important. I break off to look for the passage. In two quick flips, I‘ve located the text: “At this time one works at the energy with the purpose of making it flow backward and rise, flow down to fall like the upward spinning of the sun-wheel…in this way one succeeds in bringing the true energy to its original place. This is the backward-flowing method.”

A memoir on raising Kundalini

This is a good example of “tying ones consciousness to the breath.” In fact, by the mind alone, (by directing one's intention) consciousness can change the direction of the breath to facilitate the rise of Kundalini and the opening the energy channels as explained in JJ Semple's book.

My own beginning experience with kundalini is a little different but had the same result. During a period of intense meditation, I suddenly became aware of a spontaneous change in my breathing patterns. It started with deep inhaling and holding, and then a release of breath. It was as if the breath from the pressured inhale was being directed towards various areas of my body, particularly the diaphragm, to open up these places previously devoid of air flow.

A short time later, I began to notice further changes. I became conscious of my breath rotating in a circular fashion in the abdomen area. I felt compelled to encourage this circular flow of breathing as it gave rise to bliss and a sense of being moved deeper into meditative absorption. Along with this change in breathing pattern, in my mind’s eye I visualized a wheel rotating in the same direction with my breath. It was as if my consciousness and breath were working together to keep this wheel turning in a smooth consistent rotation.

This is another example of “tying consciousness to the breath." Both cases, cited above, resulted in the rise of Kundalini and the opening of the energy channels and chakras.

Dhyana is a Sanskrit word which means an absorption into a state of mind brought about by meditation. In particular, dhyana refers to the four stages of absorption, sometimes called the "four dhyanas."

Anapana, or “tying consciousness to the breath,” is the beginning of the first stage of dhyana. It is a cultivation practice that begins the process of eliminating worries, vexations, and confused thoughts as one develops an inward awareness of all that is happening in the body and a concentration centered on the breath.

In a future post, I will give a brief explanation of the four stages of dhyana as described by Master Nan Huai-Chin in his book Working Towards Enlightenment.

Friday, May 1, 2015

Arriving Back To Where We Started

Last night, I came across a famous passage from T.S. Eliot that explains the spiritual path and process very well. I had started to write "better than anything else," but I am training myself not to live a life of comparison, which has become a moment-to-moment challenge.

Eliot wrote:

"We we shall not cease from exploration,
And the end of all our exploring
Will be to arrive where we started
And know the place for the first time."

Front cover TS Eliot's "The Waste Land"

These few potent lines sum up the spiritual journey. Eliot's seeking or "exploration" is a necessary and vital step. Opinion is divided on whether the "exploration" is necessary when we are already what we are seeking. But this view tends to come from those who have Awakened to their true place and hence have realized "they have arrived back where they started," which is why they say there's no need to "explore."

What I find hard to understand, though, is when this place is reached, why
are all the years of "exploration" that went into getting to here suddenly dismissed. Something about it doesn’t feel right. Without the "exploration" or seeking how can we arrive "at the place." The "exploration" provides the fuel for the journey. Sitting back and simply saying, "Yes, I am THAT" is only likely to result in some kind of conceptual illusion with no accompanying transformation.

Understanding at a conceptual level leaves the identity or ego-I intact and in many cases this ego-I changes to a spiritual ego I which is very hard to penetrate. The spiritual ego-I is more clever than the purely materialistic ego-I. The mind of ego-I is always ready to be quicker than the soul or consciousness and without putting in years of necessary "exploration" falls prey easily.

I think I should
now write from my experience and apply it to my own life because it has integrity and feels authentic. My "exploring" began in deep unhappiness when I was nine. It took the form of a plea to "God" to remove two protruding teeth that were the cause of my being bullied in school. Having both teeth knocked out when I fell on the street one day answered my plea; it began a lifetime of exploration that was underpinned by an absolute conviction that there was "something" other than me out there. Although my "explorations" have taken different forms over the years, that faith and trust in "something out there" has never wavered. I haven’t stuck rigidly to one path, but I have listened intently to my intuition and, as a result, I have "explored" a great many spiritual paths and traditions as well as personal self-development programs because I believe that both are necessary part of "the exploration." I have been criticized for this because the conventional wisdom states that the way to "arrive where we started" is to commit to one path and stay with it for life.

If you look at those who have followed this line of thinking, you won’t see too much evidence of Awakening among their ranks. Indeed, some of the most profound Awakening experiences in which people got to "know the place for the first time" have happened for people who weren’t on any kind of spiritual path, people like Eckhart Tolle.

That said, I did study and practice Mahayana Buddhism for almost 10 years which was the longest time I stayed with any practice. It was invaluable for understanding the mind and strengthening my nervous system so it could withstand the force of Kundalini when it rose spontaneously in 1998 and 1999.

What marks the "end of our exploring?" How do we know when we've come to the end? I assert that there is "no end." What ends are cycles of “exploration.”

The first stage of my "exploration" lasted almost 35 years and culminated in the experience of Awakening. Now begins another cycle, which I am clear will continue in future lifetimes. This is not something I have evidence for; it’s a deep intuitive knowledge given by the Grace of Kundalini. Any Awakening experience results in "knowing the place for the first time." Mooji always says, "It’s right here, right now, you are that."
Without any doubt, Mooji "knows the place" and he tries valiantly and tirelessly to point it to others. However — and here I can only state my opinion — others have not done the necessary "exploration." Mooji advocates the exploration of self-inquiry, which has come down from Ramana Maharshi and Papaji. It is an effective technique for exploration, but it is an advanced technique that requires a firm foundation in understanding how the mind works. 

Am I As I Am

Many years ago, I did a similar exercise with a partner that consisted of looking into each others eyes. Each had 10 minutes to say "I AM." I began with gusto: "I am a woman," I am a daughter, etc… At some point in these ten minutes, I reached the bottom of the ‘I AM something’ and found myself simply as the I AM, a space of nothingness which is very hard to write about. Even now, as I write about it, I feel how profound it was. The experience didn’t result in that state of consciousness becoming permanent, but I was unconcerned about its going. I had touched something whose memory would never leave me.